Being Hungry in a Place of Abundance

Nine years ago, I went through one of the toughest seasons in my life. For three years, I struggled in almost every part of my life. I faced discouragement in ministry, battled self-worth and identity issues, and my financial situation was not exactly rosy. To top it off, my family was also undergoing a financial crisis.

Yet, at the same time that season, I had the most powerful and significant encounters with God. They marked and defined who I am today. Looking back, I realised that, due to the trials in my life, I had a constant sense of need. I literally felt like if God didn’t break in, I wouldn’t make it through. I was desperate for God to move in my life. Crying out to Him on my bedroom floor till the wee hours for nights in a row was a regular occurrence.

God would meet me in my bedroom, and in conferences. He would meet me in prayer meetings and small group meetings. He would meet me when I was reading a book or watching a sermon on YouTube. I remembered those moments sitting in my office listening to a message, stopping to compose myself as it would be unsettling to my colleagues if I suddenly burst into tears.

Each time God met me, I’d receive a revelation of His goodness, nature, and love for me. He would bring healing and peace to different parts of my soul. After each revelation, I’d become even hungrier. I’d surrender more of myself at the altar of my heart and press in for more of His fire. On top of the sermons preached in Cornerstone, I’d spend money every month buying books and importing DVDs, devour materials from anyone with an anointing in the area I was pursuing.

Proverbs 27:7 says, ‘A satisfied soul loathes the honeycomb, but to a hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet.’

Out of this season of being hungry for God, I experienced His Presence in unprecedented ways. I learned much about the anointing, the gifts of the Spirit, and how to lead people into an encounter with God.

Maybe over time as my problems were resolved, I stopped feeling a sense of need for God. I moved into a comfort zone, into cruise control and a routine, and didn’t even recognise it.

Routine is the breeding ground for complacency, stagnancy, lukewarmness, and eventually lifeless religion and flesh. We can have the title of a leader and yet stop leading. We stop hungering for more of God, feed ourselves on yesterday’s manna, and lose the cutting edge and transforming impact.

When I reminisce about that season, I realised it’s stale food now, and I begin to wonder how a new move of the Spirit in my life would look like. Now is the time when the Spirit of God is challenging me to hunger for more.

Hunger is a sign of natural and spiritual health. The loss of appetite is a sign that something is wrong in the natural and spiritual. Hunger keeps us in dependency and looking for more of God.

When we lose the desire for expansion, for growth in our leadership abilities, greater intimacy in our marriages, breakthroughs in our walk with God, greater faith for the supernatural, deeper levels of the prophetic, deeper revelation, deeper knowledge of the Word – whatever it may be – it’s simply because we’ve lost the hunger for more.

Hunger motivates us to move out of familiarity, safety, and the comfort zone where we’re into something greater. Hunger causes us to dream, innovate, press in, take risks, be creative, and discover. The hungry will change the atmosphere and the environment. They’ll determine the level of breakthrough and impact. It’s not about personality, how loud they sing or shout – it’s the hunger in their hearts that attracts a greater manifestation of the Kingdom.

In a church environment like Cornerstone, we’re fed the finest of wheat. We are filled with teachings, revelation, promises of God, and the experiences of anointed leaders. At times, we may think that we’ve seen it all, heard it all, known it all, having sat under – and received – impartation from powerful men and women of God.

Meanwhile, the abundance in our environment causes our hearts to be insulated from the drawing of the Holy Spirit for more. The greatest obstacle to a deeper encounter with God is thinking that we already have it.

While it’s easy to feel a sense of need for God when we’re undergoing lean times, the challenge is to maintain hunger in a place of abundance, favour, and blessings. Why maintain the hunger? Because there’s more! God wants to pour out so much more power, favour, and blessings upon us for His Kingdom.

To be hungry is to acknowledge our need, to remain humble and dependent on God. I want to learn to steward what God wants to release by knowing how to be contented and grateful in the midst of abundance and yet maintain hunger for more.

God wants us to pursue and steward more in such a way that we’re thankful for what He gives us and yet have a hunger that keeps on stirring. We want hearts that continually say, “God we’re thankful for what You’ve given us, but if You don’t step in, we cannot move on.”

Ps. Sng Peh Han

Wait for the Punchline!

I recently watched a very interesting segment on TED Talks where a comedian unpacked for the audience how comedy works. First there’s the setup, and then there’s the punchline. The setup is where the comedian uses his talents, observations, and resources to seize any opportunity to ensure that the audience is moving in the same direction as his storyline. The punchline occurs when he changes that direction in a way that they’re not expecting it. The results are revelation, fulfilment, and joy expressed through laughter.

Here’s an example:
Three men are about to be executed. The guard brings the first man forward, and the executioner asks if he has any last requests. He says “No”, and the executioner shouts, “Ready! Aim!” Suddenly the man yells, “Earthquake!” Everyone is startled and looks around. In the confusion, the first man escapes.

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A Fail Grade Regardless Of What You Do

All great men in history were tested. They were men who went into their baptism of fire and emerged with their stories and wounds. There are also Biblical figures whom God delighted in, whose histories are less known, whose stories we never get to hear about. But for the most part, these men and women of renown had to undergo their tests.

While I’m a firm believer of tests and examinations, I have difficulty convincing my young daughters that these are good for their development, especially the one taking her Primary School Leaving Examination (PSLE) this year.

Abraham and Moses, Governors Joseph and Daniel, King David and the apostles, all underwent great and multiple tests. It was David, a man after God’s own heart, who cried out, “Test me, Lord, and try me, examine my heart and my mind” Psalm read more…

What The Black Death Taught Us

Get ready, this is going to be a long blog but I’m certain it’s going to be worth your time.

The ‘Black Death’ (Bubonic Plague) occurred in the mid-1300s, caused by a certain flea that lived off rodents’ blood. It particularly thrived among black rats in Central Asia. The bacteria carried by the rat attacks the lymph glands of the human body and hence the immune system. Victims experienced high fever and bled beneath the skin. This caused visible dark patches, giving the name ‘Black Death’ to the plague.

The Black Death shows remarkable similarities to the present pandemic that has brought the world to a standstill. I want to take time to point out some uncanny similarities.

1. It started in China

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Persecution

We recently hosted a Zoom prayer meeting on the International Day of Christian Martyrs. It was really encouraging to see the number of people and nations that participated. The uptick in destabilising and frightening trends worldwide has sounded an alarm. I think it’s a sign of the times. Are we witnessing the beginning of the End? Many of us are feeling the urgency to be better prepared, and rightly so!

Looking back, we realise God has been preparing us to face troubling times. A year ago, Brother Yun shook us up with his testimonies of surviving horrific treatment at the hands of cruel authorities. Canon Andrew White’s life story last October reminded us further of the price that’s being paid by Christians in other parts of the world. Then, in a series of messages at the end of the year, read more…

God’s Generational Treasure

Cornerstone’s youth ministry, relaunched as ‘Generations’ in 2000 after a 3-year hiatus, celebrated its 20th anniversary this month. It’s been my great joy and honour to watch many of these young lives journey into adulthood.

Many of our ‘then’ young people are now serving in Cornerstone as pastors and staff. These lives stoked in the fire of God are now effective ministers and some have been sent out as church pioneers, pastoring, labouring in the fire of the Holy Spirit, serving locally and in the nations. They’re no more young teens but men and women, many married with family.

What God has wrought through these yielded vessels are stories to be told – just like how my husband and I took the divine plunge into the ministry 30 years ago – life encounters still burning in the flames.

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Proud to be Singaporean!

Every year, on National Day, my family and I will sit in front of the TV to watch the National Day Parade live. As always, we sing the songs patriotically, laugh at the outrageous costumes, tear when the National Anthem is sung, talk about our National Service experiences, but one thing is for sure – we’re all proud to be Singaporeans. I’m a patriot and I love my country and my people, regardless of race, language or religion.

In 1978, the evangelist Dr. Billy Graham, prophesied that Singapore would be an Antioch for Asia. It was a defining moment for us as a nascent nation. At that time, we were just 13 years into nationhood and so, our future was uncertain. If you can recall, the Iranian Revolution had just begun that would eventually lead the world into a global read more…

The Power of Creativity

I’ve always been intrigued by the account of Adam naming the animals in Genesis 2:19-20. Names in the Bible carry identity, nature, and purpose. We today have the benefit of hindsight.

We’d look at an elephant, for example, and know its nature and temperament. However, for Adam, it was the first time animals ever existed and God wanted him to creatively call out the nature of each living thing.

The Lord wanted to give Adam a sense of ownership in the Garden. He also wanted to partner with His son in the creative process and participate in defining the nature of creation.

I often wondered what was going through Adam’s mind as he set eyes on each animal for the first time. The first man, made in the image of the Master Creator, with the creative nature of God in read more…

Buried or Planted?

This week, two seemingly unrelated events converged on the same day and shed some light into what I’ve been pondering. I received two packs of seeds from the National Parks to grow some edible plants at home, even though I didn’t register for it. I remembered saying to myself grudgingly, “Great! Now I’ve got to find some soil to plant those seeds.” Later that evening, I watched a war movie where the opening scene centred around a small group of US Marines at the cemetery in a sombre mood, surrounding the lowered casket of their fallen comrade.

The next scene showed the soldiers shovelling soil onto the casket, and then it struck me – burial looks no different from planting. Both require some digging and the ‘objects’ are hidden underground, covered with soil. However, for one, death means new life read more…

Rooooooooom!!

Every man who has gone through National Service in Singapore has his own favourite story to tell. Usually, they’re hilarious tales of being ‘tekan’ (disciplined) by their army sergeant. Mine was the room inspection.

It may sound unreasonable now but, back in the day (there I go again), the officer would suddenly show up in our room of 16 men in bunks without warning or appointment. The accompanying sergeant would shout “ROOM!”, the recruits would jump to attention and the officer and the sergeant would then inspect the room.

To the new recruits who had yet to appreciate the discipline, the gruelling drill looked more like an excuse for torture. The inspectors ran their fingers in the most obscure areas like the underside of the table or the top of the cabinet. In a room of Ah Boys who were read more…

Don’t Forget Your Mission

I’m glad the elections are over! Don’t get me wrong, I believe the exercise of our votes is the most fundamental act of a functioning democracy, and it’s a responsibility that we need to take seriously.
 
At the same time, a week is about as much of social media political frenzy I can handle. All of a sudden, everyone has a degree in political science. The coffeeshop political pundits come out in full force. Dubious exposé about various candidates surface, and sound bites suddenly defined a whole person’s life. Of course, elections come with its own share of funnies:
 
“Everyone told me to vote wisely, but I couldn’t find ‘wisely’ on my polling card.” Nandos announced, “We too have an East Coast plan… we now deliver to the East Coast!”
 
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God Is On His Throne

No nation has been spared as the novel coronavirus came onto the global scene like a tsunami. Some have likened the ‘Circuit Breaker’, the nation’s comprehensive stay-home notice for all Singaporeans, as a time of confinement.

A confinement is traditionally associated with a mother recuperating from childbirth. It’s during this period that her strength is given time to renew, and her body to revert to its original state. And, if any thought that things would return to normal post-confinement period of 7 April to 1 June, we all now agree that things are never going to be the same for quite some time, even as we’re now in ‘safe transition’ Phase 2.

Resilience is key as we see the goalposts shift. And it isn’t just here in Singapore, millions are battling a loss of normalcy in their daily lives and read more…

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